Thursday, July 23, 2009
A surge over me.
4.47am. I am sitting here crying... i dont know why, a sudden emptiness loom over me like a very huge shadow had been cast over me, the loniness, the sadness, just overwhelms me. I think i am breaking down, its been ages since i felt like this, where by i suddenly long for someone beside me to comfort me to hold me, but as i soon realize there was none... no one around me.
What happen to my happy self ? i dont know it just disappeared. I dont know what to do now, i cant sleep and i am feeling like this.
Went out to sit in the living room and sat on the chair till now(8.30am). finally after so much crying i am feeling sleepy.... good.. morning.
4.47am. I am sitting here crying... i dont know why, a sudden emptiness loom over me like a very huge shadow had been cast over me, the loniness, the sadness, just overwhelms me. I think i am breaking down, its been ages since i felt like this, where by i suddenly long for someone beside me to comfort me to hold me, but as i soon realize there was none... no one around me.
What happen to my happy self ? i dont know it just disappeared. I dont know what to do now, i cant sleep and i am feeling like this.
Went out to sit in the living room and sat on the chair till now(8.30am). finally after so much crying i am feeling sleepy.... good.. morning.
posted by Kayden @ 4:46 AM
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Again. I run out of ideas.
I dont know if its me or is something out there interfering with my brain... I dont know what she thinks most of the time ever since i been together with her.
I just cant figure out what she wants or what she is thinking at any given point of time.
Can someone out there PLEASE help me ?
Am i being, too not understanding ?
I dont know so far i seem alright ... *shrugs*
Am i being a a MCP ?
I dont think i am ? hopefully not...
Am i not caring enough ?
I try my best too... But sometimes its just hard due to situation.(especially on the verge of a fight)
Am i not loving enough ?
I give her all my love everytime we meet up or not meet up. Is that not good enough? maybe its never enough.*who knows*All i know is i am trying my best. If its not good enough then i guess i have to sacrifice many more things.
so many questions ... TOOO MANY... Gazillion shit running through my mind untill .... I miss a MRT stop, And my bus stop( which i had to walk like 1km Back to my house $&*^@&*$ )
I just hate situations where by i dont know how to react... maybe i should just keep quiet and let it all come to me and just take it with a pinch of salt. But everyone also has its limits, There is only so much i can take, Will it be enough?*i dont know* I have never tried.
I guess its time for me to just mellow down to some quiet guy and become henpecked. And go , ok, yes, alright, i am sorry, my bad, forgive me, *kneel down* etc...
At the end of it all... i guess the only best way to settle this is just... as they all say... Listen to the lady-in-charge. solves all problems. All i need to do is beat myself on the chest and jiayou.
Oh
P/S : Feel free to give me ideas anyone... =D
I dont know if its me or is something out there interfering with my brain... I dont know what she thinks most of the time ever since i been together with her.
I just cant figure out what she wants or what she is thinking at any given point of time.
Can someone out there PLEASE help me ?
Am i being, too not understanding ?
I dont know so far i seem alright ... *shrugs*
Am i being a a MCP ?
I dont think i am ? hopefully not...
Am i not caring enough ?
I try my best too... But sometimes its just hard due to situation.(especially on the verge of a fight)
Am i not loving enough ?
I give her all my love everytime we meet up or not meet up. Is that not good enough? maybe its never enough.*who knows*All i know is i am trying my best. If its not good enough then i guess i have to sacrifice many more things.
so many questions ... TOOO MANY... Gazillion shit running through my mind untill .... I miss a MRT stop, And my bus stop( which i had to walk like 1km Back to my house $&*^@&*$ )
I just hate situations where by i dont know how to react... maybe i should just keep quiet and let it all come to me and just take it with a pinch of salt. But everyone also has its limits, There is only so much i can take, Will it be enough?*i dont know* I have never tried.
I guess its time for me to just mellow down to some quiet guy and become henpecked. And go , ok, yes, alright, i am sorry, my bad, forgive me, *kneel down* etc...
At the end of it all... i guess the only best way to settle this is just... as they all say... Listen to the lady-in-charge. solves all problems. All i need to do is beat myself on the chest and jiayou.
Oh
P/S : Feel free to give me ideas anyone... =D
posted by Kayden @ 3:38 AM
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
How u wish...
These are screenshots of my World Of Warcraft GBANKS
PS : Stop drooling :P
These are screenshots of my World Of Warcraft GBANKS
PS : Stop drooling :P
posted by Kayden @ 1:30 AM
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
Time Flies
WOOO!!!!!
Man its been a long time since i posted. So what have i been doing recently?
WOOO!!!!!
Thats my character!!! A DEATH KNIGHT
Thats the game that i have been playing since 4 - 5 yrs ago. Mad ain't it hehe.
Well enough of the game :P Onwards to other topics!!!
Recently my darling had a proposal to do and all stressed up about it, i personally have never done a proposal cause usually is people giving me a proposal to read on things to buy. I guess she must be super stressed out but i hope that shes all relieved now since its being handed up!
She came over one night and we spend about 3 hours doing up the proposal cracking our heads over topics and such man its such a headache!~!~ But alas we done it or should i say SHE done it. I am proud of my dear as she is really so capable peifu~.
So after all that head cracking and everything the days go by and the topic of colour contact lens came up! she said she had seen a girl wearing purple contact lens( and of cause knowing her favourite colour is purple, she went all GAGA over it :P ) and she was telling me she never wore one. TADA!!!!! i went out spent my last few dollars and got for her!~~~~~
PURPLE LENS!
Thats the game that i have been playing since 4 - 5 yrs ago. Mad ain't it hehe.
Well enough of the game :P Onwards to other topics!!!
Recently my darling had a proposal to do and all stressed up about it, i personally have never done a proposal cause usually is people giving me a proposal to read on things to buy. I guess she must be super stressed out but i hope that shes all relieved now since its being handed up!
She came over one night and we spend about 3 hours doing up the proposal cracking our heads over topics and such man its such a headache!~!~ But alas we done it or should i say SHE done it. I am proud of my dear as she is really so capable peifu~.
So after all that head cracking and everything the days go by and the topic of colour contact lens came up! she said she had seen a girl wearing purple contact lens( and of cause knowing her favourite colour is purple, she went all GAGA over it :P ) and she was telling me she never wore one. TADA!!!!! i went out spent my last few dollars and got for her!~~~~~
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PURPLE LENS!
HEHE!!!! she never wore a lens before in her life so this is her first time!!!! OMG EXCITED(weird i think i feel more excited about it then her, maybe because shes scared:P)
And guess what i found ? MY DREAM LENS!!!! OMG!!! i was saying it the other day of my new found anime series NARUTO! that it would be cool if i had a contact lens of "SHARINGAN"
and here it IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
And guess what i found ? MY DREAM LENS!!!! OMG!!! i was saying it the other day of my new found anime series NARUTO! that it would be cool if i had a contact lens of "SHARINGAN"
and here it IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
AWESOME COOL!!!!( I WANT )
Hehe, nice right ? i bet some people will just freak out and say WTH! YOUR NUTS! ( yeah i know i am nuts ) But who cares my dear don't think i am nuts can le hor hor hor dear ? *blinks blinks* *cheeky smile*
So enough about that, alot of things been happening recently and also my dear and i made a pact to lose weight together, hehe JIAYOU! =). We can slim down and look good! =D mauckz mauckz muackz.
THE PICTURE!
My girlfriends blog has alot of readers and followers and guess what ? So happen one of the bloggers was transiting through singapore and we met up with her, shes a nice girl or... hmm lady perhaps, friendly, cheerful... list goes on... :P . BUT BUT! i must say this, shes a came whore like many other people and of all the things that got posted, WAS MY UGLY PICTURE! OMFG so ugly can *cries* and they got all the nice pictures of themself and mine was just pure Fugly. *wails*, ok enough of my ugly looks, we met her and had coffee and thus after proceeded to have some bites before it was time for her to get back on the plane~, Well all the best in whatever you do *cheers*
THE ONE RING TO RULE IT ALL!
As it says, the ONE RING! yes! we got a couple ring together after so many months, its very pretty, i emphasis PRETTY!, cause it looks good on her hands~, but looks weird on mine, hahaha too shiny perhaps, but who cares i still love it =), i am very happy and i really will treasure it.
After all of that, here's the bad part of it all... I CANT SLEEP. I have no idea why i cant get to sleep even though i am tired. This is just absurd, pure rubbish, as time ticks away during my sleepless nights, i began to realise how much i actually miss my darling beside me snoozing away while i just watch her sleep, every night that she spends at my house i have always watch her sleep( yeah i know perverted right ?) and sayang her and hug her, i really miss it alot, i wish so much to spend every night like this with you even right now at this hour, i am feeling rather lost without you sleeping behind me. *emo*
And i promise her that i will eat SO! i am going down to buy food now at 1.39am in the morning hehe, have something light cause guess what ? I HAVE NOT EATEN ANYTHING THE WHOLE DAY.
Ok signing off~
Magically yours,
Kayden
So enough about that, alot of things been happening recently and also my dear and i made a pact to lose weight together, hehe JIAYOU! =). We can slim down and look good! =D mauckz mauckz muackz.
THE PICTURE!
My girlfriends blog has alot of readers and followers and guess what ? So happen one of the bloggers was transiting through singapore and we met up with her, shes a nice girl or... hmm lady perhaps, friendly, cheerful... list goes on... :P . BUT BUT! i must say this, shes a came whore like many other people and of all the things that got posted, WAS MY UGLY PICTURE! OMFG so ugly can *cries* and they got all the nice pictures of themself and mine was just pure Fugly. *wails*, ok enough of my ugly looks, we met her and had coffee and thus after proceeded to have some bites before it was time for her to get back on the plane~, Well all the best in whatever you do *cheers*
THE ONE RING TO RULE IT ALL!
As it says, the ONE RING! yes! we got a couple ring together after so many months, its very pretty, i emphasis PRETTY!, cause it looks good on her hands~, but looks weird on mine, hahaha too shiny perhaps, but who cares i still love it =), i am very happy and i really will treasure it.
I LOVE YOU!
XOXOXOXOXOXO
THE UNDEADXOXOXOXOXOXO
After all of that, here's the bad part of it all... I CANT SLEEP. I have no idea why i cant get to sleep even though i am tired. This is just absurd, pure rubbish, as time ticks away during my sleepless nights, i began to realise how much i actually miss my darling beside me snoozing away while i just watch her sleep, every night that she spends at my house i have always watch her sleep( yeah i know perverted right ?) and sayang her and hug her, i really miss it alot, i wish so much to spend every night like this with you even right now at this hour, i am feeling rather lost without you sleeping behind me. *emo*
And i promise her that i will eat SO! i am going down to buy food now at 1.39am in the morning hehe, have something light cause guess what ? I HAVE NOT EATEN ANYTHING THE WHOLE DAY.
Ok signing off~
Magically yours,
Kayden
posted by Kayden @ 12:53 AM
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Thursday, July 2, 2009
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3.28am. Can't sleep, just quarreled with her... so right now shes sleeping behind me while i am on my PC staring at it for the past 1 hr +.
Ok i have been typing and canceling my post for the last 15 mins cause i don't know how to write it out in words, weird -_-".
People always say blogs are a place to write your feelings and how u feeling about certain things and blah blah blah... But how the heck do you write something u dislike in here when u dont want to offend people LOL... spastic piece of shit.
Well heres something new... i wont be going clubbing ever again =). *cheers*.
No more alcohol.
No more Dancing.
No more looking stupid.
No more worries.
I guess all girlfriends love that to have their BF stay at home and not look at other girls or guys at clubs.
Weeeeeeeeeeee.....................................................
FULL TIME RAIDING HERE I COME (cause thats what i only have left) CHIONG AR! EPICS!
3.28am. Can't sleep, just quarreled with her... so right now shes sleeping behind me while i am on my PC staring at it for the past 1 hr +.
Ok i have been typing and canceling my post for the last 15 mins cause i don't know how to write it out in words, weird -_-".
People always say blogs are a place to write your feelings and how u feeling about certain things and blah blah blah... But how the heck do you write something u dislike in here when u dont want to offend people LOL... spastic piece of shit.
Well heres something new... i wont be going clubbing ever again =). *cheers*.
No more alcohol.
No more Dancing.
No more looking stupid.
No more worries.
I guess all girlfriends love that to have their BF stay at home and not look at other girls or guys at clubs.
Weeeeeeeeeeee.....................................................
FULL TIME RAIDING HERE I COME (cause thats what i only have left) CHIONG AR! EPICS!
posted by Kayden @ 3:27 AM
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